I’ve found myself on the end of heartbreak quite a bit. My dad left when I was a preteen. My first step dad teased and taunted me into being so insecure. . My second step-dad turned into a monster that I couldn’t even look at. My first boyfriend broke my heart, and my second one cheated on me. I’ve had friends lie to me, abuse my kindness, and back stab me so many times, I’m sure there are scares. My own grandmother made me feel like I wasn’t good enough because I wouldn’t be what she wanted. I’ve been threw a lot of heartache and yet, I can’t help but love everyone. Everytime I get burned, I tell myself “I won’t do that again”, “I won’t give myself up so easily”, “I won’t love the next one so openly.” But I always do. So if you love to easily, here’s some things I’ve learned over the years.
- It’s okay. For a while, I thought the way I loved was wrong. I thought giving everyone a piece of me, would leave me empty when they left. But the truth is, it’s made me more whole. It’s okay to love so easily, it’s okay to be able to say you love someone, even after they’ve hurt you. It okay.
- Sometimes, you don’t have a choice. There’s this guy, and I knew the moment I met him, I was screwed. He never led me on, never told me a lie, he was always upfront. But I knew he’d take a piece when he left, I feel in love with him. Because he was himself, and because of it, I again stand at the end of heartbreak, placing the pieces back together. But I knew from the beginning, it would happen. Sometime, you don’t have a choice. Our hearts are already so wide open that it rushes in before you can slam it shut.
- Not everyone is okay with how easily you can love. Some people think that your wrong because after a few weeks, you can say you love someone. Some people will find it awkward, uncomfortable, fake, and even inappropriate. But it’s not wrong. People who love easily, they don’t need years to build it, they don’t necessarily need time. We just know it, and embrace it.
- You have to embrace it. I spent so long not allowing myself to embrace it, not allowing myself to accept that I just love easily. In high school, I didn’t want to be the girl who told her boyfriend that she loves him after two weeks. I didn’t want to forgive my dad for leaving, even though I already had. I didn’t want to remember the good times with my step dad’s. But one day I realized that it is who I am. I’m not someone who holds a grudge, and I’m not someone who hates someone. Embrace it, accept it. It makes life so much nicer.
- Your heart will be broken easier, and it will probably hurt more and take more to put back. But once the piece are back together, you’ll find that you can love again. You find that loving isn’t hard again. My dad and I will probably never have a dad-daughter relationship, but I forgive him. I forgive him for leaving me. My hearts whole again. But I know, it’ll be broken again. I’m not prepared, and I probably never will be, but I know it’s coming, because with loving comes heartbreak.
Don’t let loving easily scare you. Embrace it, enjoy it, because it’s not a bad thing. It may not always feel good, and it maybe difficult, but it’s worth it.
Love, Megan Anne
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