With a new year beginning and everyone talking about college, I’m sure that some are wondering, Megan are you in college? Did you go to college? Ect ect ect.
So let me start of by telling you a few things.
- I didn’t go off to a university, I stayed in my hometown and went to our community college (which isn’t wrong).
- I was being pressured to work full-time, and school full-time.
- I know a lot of people can do both, but everyone is different.
- I was going threw a pretty bad break up in the fall of the first year.
- I was 18 and all I wanted to do was party and drink. I truly wasn’t prepared for what college really required.
Okay now that is out of the way let me tell you about my college experience. Basically, there isn’t much to tell. My experience wasn’t bad, but honestly that’s because I didn’t go. I wanted to go, and usually I did. Or at least I went up to campus and would sit in the cafeteria. The thing was, I wasn’t really there. I was so exhausted from working all the time, and then I would just be falling asleep in class. I felt awful for falling asleep, so basically I rationalized myself into not going. I also hated being late, and that was thing, I was always late.
Okay, so for the next thing. I got FSFA, yes. So when you go to community college you can apply for FSFA (federal aid) and believe me, I qualified for a lot of help. Now when you go to university, you won’t see a dime of that but when your classes are only like $600 – $700 total, plus books, you tend to see a lot of that back. So basically, I got that money and I wasted it.
Okay, now back to the story. I’ll give y’all a little timeline.
Fall 2012 – I started classes, I probably went to every class that I had for the first month. Then October came, and I was talking to this new guy, and I guess I just got caught up in talking to him, that I put school on the back burner. I took 4 classes that semester, so a full load. My mom had really been pressuring me to work full-time as well. Here’s the thing, my mom didn’t go to college, she graduated high school and then went straight to working (again not wrong), so she didn’t necessarily understand the stress from it, and the amount of work it truly is. So anyways, the semester goes on, and I’m not even going to class or doing the work. The semester ends, at this point, I’m not talking to that guy anymore (jackass), I basically haven’t gone to class in three months now, and I didn’t take a single exam.. Let’s just say, I got 4 F’s. Yep. That happened.
So now, the month we have between semesters, I promise myself that I’m going to do better.
Spring 2013 – I sign up for 4 classes (why?), and I’m still working full-time. But at this point, I’ve officially started working morning shifts. Literally, going to work at 4:30am (never really happened). I sign up for classes, I’m working. I ended up dropping out of two of the class (I can’t remember what) before the drop date, because I realized that there was no way I could handle that. I just knew. I was arguing with my mom a lot. We were clashing because I was still living at home and she can be kind of crazy (love you mom). Honestly, I don’t even think I ever really went to class. I know that was the first semester that I took speech, but I stopped going. Anyways, the end of the semester comes incredibly fast (because that always happens) and I had F’s in both of the classes I took. Yep, I did that same thing a second time.
Now it’s summer, we have like 3 months (I think) between semesters. I was working a ton, still fighting with my mom a ton, and still really hating my job. At this point, I can’t qualify for FSFA and I know that, so I make the decision to not go Fall 2013. I decided that it’s just not worth it, I can’t keep doing that anymore. So now, we will skip to Spring 2014.
Spring 2014 – I can’t qualify for FSFA anymore, so I have to pay for my classes myself, so originally I was going to take 2 classes, speech and math (i can’t remember which one). Unfortunately because of a lot of different reasons, I couldn’t pay for both and books and codes. It just wasn’t going to happen. So I dropped out of that math class and only took the speech class. I’m not sure exactly what happened this semester, but something really clicked in my head. I stopped working at the job I’d had since Fall 2012, I went back to the job I had in high school, and I guess because I was struggling for money so much, I just realized what was truly important. So, at the end of the semester, I turned 20, I got a new job, and I planned on moving out. What happened to that class? I got a B, which I was really shocked because I always think I do bad with public speaking.
So, now it’s summer and I’m working this new job. This job is M-F 11:30am – 8pm, I realize that I’m never going to be able to handle going to class at 8am, I’m just not that much of a morning person, and honestly, I didn’t want to go back. So I don’t. I move out of my mom’s in September, and until Fall 2015 (so a year and half later) do I decided to do anything about school. So now, I’m not going to that community college, but I am taking classes online to get certified to Medical Billing and Coding through and online university, and as of Fall 2016, I am so close to being finished now.
What do I want to do in the future? Well, Medical Billing and Coding, isn’t going to be my long-term career, at least I don’t think so. I have ever intention and want to go back to school and get my associated degree, and maybe even eventually a bachelors, but truth be told, I don’t know what I want to do. At one point, I wanted to be a teacher, and then I wanted to get a business degree, but then I really think about it, and I don’t want to do either. I just want to do something that makes me happy, and I’m not sure what that is.
So, if you’re still reading (dang you rock), here’s what I’m going to tell you:
- Don’t go to college if you aren’t ready and mentally prepared. I know, there is a lot of pressure to start college right after you graduate high school, it’s the norm, but I promise if you aren’t ready, you’ll just waste your time.
- Going to a community college vs a university isn’t a bad thing.
- Don’t work full-time (unless you absolutely have to or can handle it) and go to school full-time. It’s hard as hell, and it leaves little time to do anything you really need to do.
- And last, enjoy it. I think if I had allowed myself to take part, make friends, ect., I may have felt the want to really go and try.
What was y’all’s experience? Did you go off and get a degree? Or did you stay in your hometown and struggle for years? I feel like I can’t possibly be the only one, but I never hear people talk about failing at college. Even my mom get’s all clamey when I talk about my failure in college. It’s crazy, because it’s not really a new thing. It literally happens all the time!
Anyways, leave a comment down below, let me know your story! Any tips?
Love, Megan Anne
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