I never really felt like a teenager, and I defiantly don’t feel like an adult yet. But now I look back and I can see that I was a teenager, and I made a lot of mistakes. And did a lot of things I wish I could take back. But, lately I’ve found that I feel more and more like an adult.
Well, one thing that has defiantly made me feel like an adult, the first guy I dated in high school, the first guy I feel in love with, is having a damn baby. And that’s crazy. And then I find out he’s engaged to the girl.
Now, I know what you’re thinking, “Megan, they’re having a baby together!” Yes, I completely get that, I’m not saying that it’s bad to marry her, probably the right thing to do. I’m not writing this to say how wrong it is or how I’m jealous of him or her or them. I’m not.
But when I found out that he was going to be a dad, I’m not sure what happened but all the sudden that I really realize how long it had been since we were in high school, how much we’ve grown up, how much life has been lived since then.
Anyways, the point was that I needed to say a few things.
- I’m so incredibly happy for him and her. Even though my friends probably really think that it’s burning a hole in my heart, but it’s not. Honestly, you aren’t a bad guy and you deserve to be happy.
- It did hurt at first. But not because I want you back, but because it meant that it was truly over between us.
- I hope she make you so happy that you never have a thought to date anyone else. I hope that you are so happy that when you wake up with her, and go to bed with her, she’s all you think about.
- I hope you make her happy. I hope that you give her everything you could never give me. I hope that you make her proud to say she’s yours.
It’s kind of funny, when you’re in high school you think it’ll never end, and then when you’re out of high school, it’s gone by to fast.
I hope you know how much I loved you, how much I always cared about you. How incredibly happy I am that you have her, and she has you. Because it all make since. It make everything we ever said between each other real. It makes me glad to say I had you then, and she’s has you now. Who knows if it’s forever, who know if it’s just for now. But I hope to God that you don’t take it forgotten. I hope that you don’t.
Love, Megan Anne
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